_Stale Memories_

 

MewsChangeling: there's another secret vice for the Old Man... mini marshmallows

The smell of dust was everywhere in the confined space. Without a tenant to complain or to clean, the fluffy coating on the cardboard box lids, ten years worth of neglected detritus, had gotten everywhere. Sephiroth sat down on the standard issue blue blankets, seeing ghostly gray handprints along the bed where others had wiped their guilty fingers. He would soon be doing the same. The boxes were too tempting to allow to rest in peace. Practicality barely over ruled nostalgia, sending him back to the containers he had already explored, gently lifting free the folded clothing to sort it into stacks next to him. Pants, shirts, socks, his fingers hesitated over the soft warm texture of a particularly ratty gray sweatshirt. There were paint stains at the sleeves, loden green, the smell of the freshly retouched jeep came back with sudden clarity.

He swore softly to himself and set the article aside. As comfortable as he remembered the garment being, there was a certain level of professionalism he was hoping to maintain. Beneath a bulky fleece was what he was looking for, several monochromatic t-shirts in shades of black and gray. 'Formal summer wear' his friend had once dubbed them, pulling one on as he headed across the city for a rare family outing. The usually laidback SOLDIER had taken unusual pains to fit in with his uncle's family, a gesture of respect paid to a man more dear to him that his own father had been.

Sephiroth held one of the shirts up against his chest, reminding himself that the item would fit. Knit shirts had always been a safe thing to borrow, what was loose on his friend had always fit him well enough. It was the pants that were damnably impossible. Showing off six inches of calf was ridiculous.

// Somewhere in this mess...  are some of /my/ clothes... That's if whoever was packing didn't notice the odd inclusion of a pair of pants with an inside-leg of over 40inches sticking out as unusual among the more sanely proportioned items. //

Zack had tried on his pants once as a joke and had shuffled around with the slack over his feet like a little kid, laughing the whole time. He pushed the thought away, resolved to stop thinking about the past in favor of dealing with the present. It made no sense to go borrowing trouble. He rolled his find into a tidy bundle and left it on the bed before exploring some of the other containers for anything useful. Now that he had something to wear after his shower, there were less pressing items that he wouldn't mind borrowing, a book for instance. Conversation was sparse for former psychopaths, he found. Sephiroth didn't blame them. If he were them, he wouldn't want to talk to him either.

Digging through a new box revealed it to be a weird combination of things tossed together at random. He recognized several pots and pans, and wondered how a trio of mystery novels had gotten wedged into the corner. There was also a very old jar of coffee, years stale, and, to his amazement, an equally fossilized bag of plain white mini-marshmallows. He yanked the stiff bag free of it's prison and turned it over in his hands.

"... they're stale."

"... they're stale." Sephiroth banged the bag of sugary little rocks against the counter to demonstrate, and glared when his friend only snorted in amusement at his plight.

"And who's fault is that?" The dark man looked up from his newspaper with a droll smile.

"/I/ sealed the bag last week... so it had to be you."

"Don't think so. I haven't touched them." The southerner countered mildly. "I hate marshmallows."

The general rolled his eyes in disbelief. His second's love of all things unhealthy was legend. The only exception he was aware of was the way that Zack took his coffee. Watching the SOLDIER gulp it down straight from the pot every morning was still a painful experience. Black coffee, no matter how expensive, always tasted rather like something that should have been used to strip paint.

His dark haired friend saw his skepticism and shrugged, "No really, I do. Don't even like Peeps. The texture of marshmallows weirds me out."

"
So why do you put them in cocoa?"

"That's different, they melt." Tilting his head as if to consider his contradiction, he grinned suddenly. "The stale ones melt just as well anyway, so it's not like I care."

"Bastard. What am I supposed to eat now?"

"There are some jelly beans in the tin on the counter... if it's something sweet you're craving..."

"Hmmm." It was uncanny how easily Zack was able to read his mind some days.


Turning the bag over again, Sephiroth prodded the completely hardened mass of fluffed sugar. Ten years stale, and probably stale before they had ever been packed away... he wondered why anyone had bothered. Knowing the average mental potential of the Shinra drudges, he supposed that whoever had 'packed' Zack's apartment had simply packed /everything/ perishable or not. If he was truly unlucky, one of the remaining boxes would have the unfortunate contents of the SOLDIER's fridge. He shook his head. Not even Hojo's drudges were /that/ incompetent. Besides, the box would have started to smell after a few months. Looking around at the other containers, most of them open, he sighed softly, surprised at how easily the old memories could catch him. Luck allowed him a distraction in the form of a hesitant tap at the door. A moment later it was pushed open revealing a familiar shock of blond hair.

"... You might as well come in." He murmured, irritated somehow by the shorter man's hesitance. He couldn't entirely blame him, it was bad enough being surrounded by mementos of Zack without having to face the memories in company. Some things were better dealt with alone. It would be humiliating to be caught crying over a bag of stale confectionary, after all.

Pushing his way into the room, Cloud gave him a strange look, Mako-blue eyes sweeping from him, to his bundle of clothing, to the bag in his hands in wordless curiosity. "... You might as well take all his clothes... not like the others need it." The low comment was devoid of any particular emotion.

Sephiroth shrugged. "... most of it won't fit. You'd probably have better luck with the shoes than I would."

"I'd look like I was dressing in my dad's clothes." The younger man half-smiled, not cheerful, but, better than nothing.

"... perhaps more of an older brother..." He mused softly, never entirely sure what the blond would take offense at, "Zack was a little too trendy to have much in the way of 'parental' accessories."

"Point." Cloud sighed and leaned back against the wall. "... what's that?"

The pale haired man looked down, realizing he was still holding on to the damn bag. "Oh... just... mini-marshmallows about ten years past their prime."

"Marshmallows? Ehhh. Hate'em." The Avalanche leader made a childish face, "The texture weirds me out."

Sephiroth couldn't help but stare, haunted by the echo of the words he had remembered just moments before. It was alarming in the extreme, how easily Cloud was able to emulate someone long dead and gone. Even more frightening was the realization that it probably wasn't coincidence.

Blue eyes blinked at him, showing nothing more than confusion. "... what? Jeez... You look like someone just shot your dog. What gives?"

// God damn it, get it through your head old man... the boy is Not Zack... it's just... echoes... that's all... He doesn't mean anything by it… //

He shook his head, trying to clear his thoughts. Forcing numb fingers to let go, he dropped the unwanted memory back into the box and stood up. "Nothing. Just... you reminded me of something." Picking up his shirts, he nodded at the still staring young man and made his silent escape.